Ascension comes in many ways. But for me, and I suspect many others, this one is a doozy!!!
This process of enlightenment can be cruel and unyielding. Downright a_ _ kicking! I like to compare it to being pregnant. Having a baby is something the mother to be dreamed of, and now the process is under way. She’s definitely pregnant and it’s too late to abort. Not that she would want to. In spite of the prenatal vitamins and the self-care, she is beginning to show signs of fatigue, mood swings, nausea, frustration, impatience. People tell her she has a ‘glow’ but all she feels is irritation…she can’t sleep on her stomach, she’s eating for two, gaining weight, her feet are swollen, she’s lost control of some of her bodily functions. She sure doesn’t feel sexy! She hopes she’ll get her figure back after this is all over.
But she also experiences a bliss like never before. She’s carrying a child in her belly. She can feel him kicking. She loves singing to him at night. What a miracle she’s growing within her.
Then her water breaks. She’s in labor, and the pain is mind-numbing. She started out the sacred process nine months ago saying how she wanted a natural birth but right now she wants drugs, and plenty of them! She’s screaming, swearing to anyone within earshot and those stupid breathing exercises aren’t really helping. She wonders why the hell she agreed to this crazy process to begin with.
And of course we know that once the miracle is birthed, she is so joyful, she quickly forgets all the pain that was involved.
She’s holding the miracle in her arms, weary but her heart is so open. This child is so pure, so sweet, so glowing with new life. You are the mother and the child. The child is your soul, your god-self. You are giving birth to yourself in this lifetime.
So you don’t have to play the nice girl or the nice boy through this unprecedented transformational process. Enlightenment is a bitch because it tears apart everything you thought you were, every belief, every illusion…until you are laying there buck-naked, with nothing but yourself (like the newborn). You can’t hide your ‘pregnancy’…everything is in plain sight. You are vulnerable like never before. You can smile through it, and you do. But you can also allow yourself to feel indisposed, tired, frustrated….it’s all appropriate. It’s not about blaming anyone else, but it’s also not about pretending you are supposed to be ‘spiritual’ and not feel the intensity of this process designed to reprogram your entire physical being.
So here you are, moments away from your birth, and you’ve let go of so much to get here. You’re letting go of your stories, your games, your distractions. Moments away from your god-self, from being the embodied master. A most stressful time, even to the point of wondering if it will all come out o.k. Wondering even if you can go back to before you were pregnant. But you know you can’t. You know that this is your destiny.
Enjoy, You Are My Destiny from Cosmic Blend
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