Many of us on our way to ascension have opted to walk our sacred path alone. Many of us have lived with mates, lovers, boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands, wives. We went through the motions of life as part of a couple. These relationships were sacred. They were tough. They were amazing. We learned so much about ourselves. For the most part we were still asleep, both eyes closed.
In the old energy we came together with our significant other from a place of incompleteness, of being unfulfilled. We were hoping that the other would fill us up in places we felt empty. We entered relationships feeling lonely, vulnerable, unworthy, insecure. But we were disillusioned when the other couldn’t fill the gap. If we entered the relationship lonely, being with them just magnified our loneliness. If we hoped we would get financial security, the price for that security became more than we could afford.
Often we were just working out old karma, coming together to relive old issues, lifetime after lifetime.
We learned much about ourselves, what our beliefs were in regard to ourselves, self-worth issues. Lack of self-love. We were looking for love in all the wrong places. We played the abused and the abuser. We learned what love wasn’t. It wasn’t neediness, it wasn’t pain, it wasn’t conditional. We learned that true connection to another is more than just common interests, financial security, or personality matching. It was so easy to get involved and so hard to disentangle ourselves.
But now many of us on the ascension path have released relationships of old energy, and many of us find ourselves alone, not dependent on anyone else. At times it can feel quite lonely, but not as lonely as being with someone we can’t connect with. We are also discovering that being alone is a gift we give ourselves in the last legs of our journey. We are discovering that it’s the best way to find ourselves, to begin to rely on self, to begin to trust self, to begin to truly love ourselves.
It is a sacred time to delve deeply into self without distraction. We are discovering that we are whole and complete, and can provide for ourselves better than anyone else. We no longer need to look outside ourselves for anything. We know that ascension is a solitary path. Yet we know that we truly are not alone.
We are no longer seduced by charm, flattery, intelligence, money, beauty, generosity, or even shared conversation on spirituality. We feel beyond their words for the deeper truth, and if they are not embracing their own spirit we know it. We no longer feel a need for approval. For we are beginning to approve of ourselves. We embrace our own masculine and feminine qualities, and we are more balanced as a consequence. We recognize our worth and that our energies are valuable and need not be squandered.
We are discovering that not too many around us are in their balance. But we don’t allow self-inflicted or societal pressure to seduce us into compromising our deeper truth. Sometimes we feel heavy in our heart, a little lost, scared. We have sleepless nights sometimes. But we also are learning to breathe. To ask for assistance, for encouragement from our spiritual family. We can also reach out to a friend, a family member, for someone to talk to. But we are finding that we are a much better listener, and understand ourselves so much better than anyone else.
We are enjoying our sacred solitude, our creativity. We are redefining our true passion. We love our walks, our writing, our music, our silly television shows. We are building our self-sufficiency muscles. And from our place of sovereignty we know if someone comes into our life and we desire to share who we are with them, it will be a balanced connection, two divine humans – for the joy of it.