For those of us who are awakening, we find ourselves increasingly uncomfortable in a world in which others are still asleep. That’s the bad news, but the good news is that we will adjust, and they will adjust to us, too, in time.
Meanwhile, there are times we may want to tell those in our life…the ones that we are close to, the following, not necessarily to their face, maybe just in our mind’s eye:
“I’ve been around the world, and I have walked the long, lonely road. I’ve played so many roles: both victim and perpetrator. I’ve been to hell and back. I’ve done the heavy lifting.
Now, it’s MY time. Perhaps I didn’t make that clear. But for the rest of my time here on Planet Earth I am devoting myself to me – to MY life…to filling myself up. I am committing myself to my enlightenment, my ascension. And to fulfilling my heart’s desires.
And, as much as I love you all, those heart’s desires do not necessarily include you. They are just for me. Truly, they are my own personal gift to myself. They are things I want to experience, feelings I want to feel. Just for me. They include fun, creativity, passion, and personal peace. I’m not sure where it will lead me, but that’s part of the adventure.
I’m beginning to walk the planet in a very different way. And it makes me uncomfortable and I know it makes you uncomfortable. I care about you, but I won’t care-take you. I’m not available for drama, or for finger-pointing. I am not responsible for your happiness.
I see the god-light in you so I’m not worried about you. I’m here to love myself and by doing that I can be the new role model for you, and the rest of humanity, of a new way of being. I’m beginning to take responsibility for my life, for all my feelings. I’m discovering that responsibility doesn’t include self-blame, but self-understanding. I’m taking a bold step. I’m no longer identifying so much with who I was yesterday.
Who I was, was mostly a product of old stale beliefs and programming. Someone who tried and tried to fit into a system that had little to do with who I really was. Who I really am.
So, I am excited, and I am scared. I am unsure a lot of the time. But then so was Einstein, Buddha, and Jesus. They often felt unsure living in the world of the asleep. And as they awakened they felt less and less connected to the energies of the world around them. But there was the spark of knowingness within them that kept them going.
It’s what keeps me going.
I love sharing who I am but I am discerning and will share it only with those who are asking. My energies are far too valuable to squander on trying to make others understand. Those who are asleep are truly where they need to be…besides, my joy doesn’t depend upon everyone ‘getting it.’ And, as I am discovering, my joy also doesn’t depend upon others liking me. Trying to seek approval, what a game that is. Exhausting. Fruitless!
Humanity pulls at my heartstrings – and I sometimes respond by wanting to soothe their pain. Because I DO feel their pain. But I now know that doing that only prolongs their pain. Helping them to see their own light is what’s called for now. And that I do by shining mine, by creating a life I love, by not identifying with the heavy thoughts and feelings that pass through me.
So, if you are feeling abandoned by me, that’s good. Because those feelings of abandonment will ultimately lead you to discovering yourself. Eventually, maybe tomorrow, maybe not for awhile, you will begin your awakening, and when you do, I will be there, right along side you, in a way that is profound. We are all in this together. We each have our role we are playing.
My wish for you is that you discover, as I have, that you don’t need to go too far to find yourself, that home is right here.”
Enjoy my song, “I’ve Been Around The World”
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