We are changing daily. We are participating in a transformation in which we are going from a being that feels incomplete to one that is whole and complete. We always were, but we are becoming more and more aware of that truth. We are going from someone who looked outside themselves to someone who has everything they need within themselves. From someone who split themselves into millions of pieces to someone who is fully integrated. No longer needing to separate the masculine and the feminine or the human and divine.
We go from feeling lonely to feeling loved and supported. From feeling doubt to feeling sure. From feeling guilty to feeling worthy.
We go from craving relationships with others to craving a relationship with ourselves.
When we do experience doubt and loneliness it is because we are still in the minority and we feel the pull of our fellow humans. But that doubt is diminishing every day.
So does guilt. We recognize that it has no place in our life. Especially as we understand the sovereignty of every human being. That they too are creating their reality and that we are not responsible for their happiness. We understand that when someone ‘leaves’ another in a relationship they are not the ‘bad guy’. Both are volunteers. Things are never what they appear. Sometimes the one being left is not yet ready for a balanced relationship for they have yet to love themselves. They may have become addicted to ‘chasing love’ because that way they get to feel but are off the hook for having a real relationship. Usually the one who they are trying to be involved with isn’t interested for their own reasons. Both people are in a dance together to avoid the deeper truth. They may not be ready for that truth.
As they awaken, they recognize that they may have needed the connection with another for a brief time which was appropriate, but then it was time to move on. There is always something to learn from relationships. There is never a missed opportunity. They are coming around constantly. They may not always be recognizable because we are used to them coming in the form of a job or a relationship.
We are going from care-takers of humanity to taking care of ourselves. Initially we feel lost without that role to play. But it gets easier. Especially when we notice how much of our energies were tied up in hand holding and nurturing others in our life. Self nurturing is so much more rewarding. Being in a bad relationship is no longer tolerable. We are too far along to keep compromising ourselves. We would rather be alone. And we are discovering, even when we are alone, that we still struggle with the relationship with ourselves, sometimes projecting our fears onto health issues or financial ones. So there are aspects of us that are still vying for our attention. Recognizing this is helpful. Especially if we are tempted to run to a relationship out of lack or fear or other distractions.
We are going from someone who trusts others to someone who trusts their own perceptions above all else. They notice that when they don’t, they get in trouble, maybe getting involved with someone or something they really didn’t want to. They go from someone who perhaps had many friends and interests and activities to someone who is quite a loner. Or maybe they had always been a solitary person but has finally accepted that and honored that about themselves.
They may be someone who was afraid to speak up, and now finds they enjoy speaking their truth. They enjoy expressing themselves, maybe through writing or music or art. They are going from someone who worried about what others think of them to not really caring so much any more. They are going from someone who was unfree to someone who will not settle for anything less than free. They are going from someone who spent too much time disconnected from themselves to someone who is very uncomfortable unless they are their true selves.
They are going from someone who set goals and tried hard, to someone who lives in the moment. From someone who worried about tomorrow to someone who knows all is well and that all their needs and desires are already met. They are going from someone who kept pushing and micro managing their life to someone who just allows all the good stuff to come in. To someone who has learned to leverage their energies by feeling good (despite what is going on around them, in their family or the world), and from that place of feeling good allowing their heart’s desires.