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You’re so done with living on the surface of life. Of talking about the weather, politics, even of talking about spirit with others. Now you want to go the distance. You want to feel your life. Without the drama, but also without limitation! You are not so afraid anymore of the thoughts and emotions traveling through your consciousness. You don’t push them away so much any more. You know that they really have no power over you.
You don’t wrestle with them so much. You don’t so much get entangled in them just as you don’t get so entangled with other people. You still feel them and their energies, maybe more than ever. You may find yourself in an animated conversation with them but you know you can come back to you easily. It doesn’t matter so much if the sadness is all you or something you picked up. You are becoming adept at transmuting it, of alchemizing it. Just as your body has the amazing capacity to process all the various foods you consume, even those so-called ‘poor quality’ ones, your newly evolving consciousness has the ability to process, to utilize the various emotions that are created from the mind, your mind or the collective consciousness.
Just as you don’t need to micromanage your digestive system so you do not need to try to control your thoughts and emotions. But you do need to decide what you want to feel. Discernment is required. As you decide upon health you then allow the natural processes of the body to make your request a reality. But in that process the body may need to purge toxins that have been long-standing. So it is true with the emotions. We call this a healing crisis.
We wanted to go deep. We wanted to experience the density of this dimension. And we still do. It’s why we are here. But now we have the opportunity to experience it from a new perspective. And we are. The only problem is the mind comes rushing in and tries to tell us that something is very wrong! Nothing is wrong! We are integrating all of ourselves, our aspects from this and other lifetimes, our human and divine self…and we are still here. How amazing is that? So all the seemingly overwhelming emotions are just a byproduct of the immense recalibration. Can you trust that your newly forming body of consciousness can handle them?
Even depression. Depression is a trick the mind plays on itself. It’s a feeling generated from the mind, thinking it has run out of options. Unfortunately psychologists think the same thing and give out drugs like candy. Depression is also a lot of other emotions being contained. It can be a lot of repressed anger. So when someone goes from depression to anger, it’s a good sign that progress is being made. There is movement in anger. Unfortunately anger is an emotion that has been given so much bad press. The only time anger gets dangerous is when it’s been suppressed for so long that it kind of explodes, but those of you reading this are too far along in your awakening to worry about that. you probably let anger build up to a point, but then you are learning to express it, even if occasionally it’s misdirected.
You are allowing yourself to feel the anger, and even to channel it if you so desire, and not to identify with it, not to judge it. It’s like watching a movie, where all kinds of emotions are incorporated in the story, but you know ultimately it’s just a movie. So you give yourself permission to feel. You know you are not stuck in those feelings, as riveting as they are.
You came here to become a being who is so in love with yourself. You wanted that experience of falling in love with yourself so badly that you were willing to go through the darkest of dark journeys. And as you fall in love with you, with your human ‘imperfect’ self, it becomes the greatest gift to the rest of humanity, and to all that is. It becomes the greatest gift you can give to your ancestors, to your family and friends, and to your angelic family. Because you begin to recognize that those so called ‘imperfections’ aren’t at all. Climbing the highest mountain seems like child’s play in comparison to falling in love with yourself, That’s because very few are willing to go inside…to embrace their dark and their light. That’s why so many do whatever they can to distract themselves from looking within. Distractions come in many forms. Keeping chronically busy is a popular one. Believe it or not even self-analysis is another. Trying to figure themselves out. We’ve all been there!
Eventually we discover that we will have to stop controlling from our mind. Slowly the human self will have to trust in the benevolent nature of life. It will have to trust that it is so much more than what it sees in the mirror, yet it will fall in love with that person.
So we came here to fall in love with ourselves, and to delve deeply into this very real, very dynamic experience. We all love romance. your life IS romantic, whether or not you have a mate or partner to share it with. The way you walk, the passion you feel for your journey, the way you talk, or write, or sing, or laugh! There’s so much feeling in that. No angel can come close to that in the non-physical realms. Even the way you cry, or scream. Yes, it’s visceral! And yes, it gets intense. And we want to escape from it. But, in our newly forming body of consciousness we will be able to temper those intense moments. There will be so much more balance. We won’t get so lost in them – although sometimes it’s fun to get lost in them, like in a good movie. Ascension is really about being in the world but not of the world. So challenging and so rewarding. Every human will take that journey, whether it’s in this lifetime or another. You, dear traveler, are paving the way for those who follow, and you are leaving your legacy of self-love along the way.
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