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Ascension Update


The further along we are in this ascension process, often the worse our lives may feel.  Things seem to be falling apart physically, emotionally, financially, in relationships and jobs.

We scratch our heads and say, “I don’t get it.  What am I missing?  What’s the benefit of integrating my divine into my life if I’m left with nothing?  If my body is falling apart, my emotions are out of control, my mind is going crazy?  I don’t remember signing up for this!”

You say to yourself, or whoever will listen, “I see others around me, who know nothing about this ascension process, whose lives are getting better.  They seem to be healthy, and financially doing well.  Did I take a wrong road somewhere?

My body seems to be more sensitive than ever!  I’ve got these ailments that persist no matter what I do.  My mind just can figure it out!”

You may identify with some, or all of the above.  Whatever stage of this process you are in, you are probably experiencing some symptoms.  And the frustration that accompanies them.  Your friends or family probably don’t understand, even if they say they do.  They can’t, unless they have also given permission for this transformational process.  So this adds an element of feeling very alone.

So you get confused.  You don’t want to feel sorry for yourself, you know you are not a victim, but you can’t help but feel at the end of your rope from time to time.  What you may have forgotten is that even though you have been working on this process for lifetimes, this is THE lifetime you slated for your ascension.  Which means a hell of a lot of transformation needs to occur in your body of consciousness.

It takes an adventurous human to allow this process.  Not many want to undergo the massive inner and outer changes required.  Of things breaking down in their life, of losing things that they cherished.  Of facing the deepest and darkest of emotions, in order to clear them.  Of losing the things that gave them a sense of security, whether it was a job, a relationship, family, health, finances, and even the mental constructs called beliefs.  What they once believed no longer rings true for them anymore.  Who they thought they were seems to be dissolving.  The passions, the connections with others are going away!  Even their beliefs about being spiritual no longer apply.

So what started out as an exciting idea, this concept of enlightenment, isn’t exactly what we expected.  Or, put another way, its a lot more challenging than expected.

But the good news is, we are doing in a few short years in this lifetime, what took lifetimes to do.    We are rebirthing in these same bodies, and transforming them in the process.  It’s not that we don’t deserve joy, health, and financial abundance, but if we are to house our soul in these bodies, and into our life, we need to release anything that blocks the self-love.  And the result will be more joy, and our bodies, and our finances naturally come into balance.


Part of the awakening process is integrating our aspects.  Those aspects are parts of ourself from this and other lifetimes, that have separated from us.  Many of them are angry at us and want to create drama in our life.   They come in and accuse us of many things:  we are not good enough, smart enough, young enough, spiritual enough.  They feel angry, sad, confused, lost.  They make their presence known by how we feel.  They sense that something different is happening to us, and they come in close. They want to feel the love, and they want to come home.  Our job isn’t to try to analyze them or to figure out what life time or when they began. All we need to do is acknowledge those feelings, whether it is sadness, anger, anxiety, fear, boredom, or any other so-called ‘dark’ emotion,  and breathe in our soul to assist with integrating those aspects.  There should be no forcing or trying involved in this.  It’s just an allowing.

That’s the part many of us are still struggling with – the allowing of our soul-self to love us just as we are, and to infuse its presence into our bodies and our lives.  But if it is taking longer than desired then so be it.  This is a process after all.  If it could happen at the snap of a finger everyone would be ascending on the planet in an overnight fashion.

There are many in the new age community who contend that we are going into unity consciousness, and while that is true, we are required to be selfish enough to fall in love with ourselves, because unity consciousness can never manifest on this Planet if humans are running around, carrying old baggage that burdens them with old fears that tell them they are not good enough, or worthy enough to have a joyful life experience.  Each one of you is, or will be teaching others who are ready what you have learned on your way to ascension.  That information is more valuable than any amount of money or things.  Showing others by example how you are becoming an integrated human.

So as an aspect comes in and tries to tell you that you are not good enough on whatever level, you know the truth.  That you are love and you are spirit and you are also the darkness, you are all of it.  We were taught that being human is on the low-end of the totem pole, and spirit was way up there somewhere.  As we awaken, we realize that there is no totem pole.  There is simply a body of consciousness.  We come to understand that we exist in many dimensions at once.  That we are in the process of transmuting the denser energies.  That we are in the process of grounding the New Energy.  Learning to use the New Energy has its own challenges.  One is that it is easier and freer and we are not used to that.

Again, the biggest challenge to us on the ascension track is to allow this process.  To surrender to our soul.  To accept ourselves as we are.  And in that acceptance of it all…the seeming chaos of our lives, we begin to love ourselves into a joy-filled life experience.

Author: soulsoothinsounds

Our lives are like great paintings or great pieces of music. If we focus on all the technical 'imperfections' we will miss the true beauty of the work. We won't see, or rather, FEEL the essence and spirit of the masterpiece. I no longer identify myself as a writer, artist, or musician. Rather I express my divinity, and my humanity through the media of art, music and writing. I began this blog because I wanted to give voice to my experiences and insights, and I wrote for myself primarily. Eight years later, I am still writing for myself, and I am discovering that my experiences are not personal but universal - galactic even. And now I am more sure than ever that I am a new consciousness teacher, as each of you are. The way we teach is by going through the very human experiences, and as we ascend and shed our old selves, with love, and as we embody spirit in this lifetime, which we are all doing, we become the standards for others of the new divine human.

23 thoughts on “Ascension Update

  1. yes it is a process and it is not an easy one. That’s for sure. I don’t even mind the processing of old emotions so much. Even at the beginning of this process, when I didn’t even know what “spiritual” means, I sensed that it is good and necessary to face old, incrusted emotions, even if it meant feeling panicky, scared, lost or angry. I instinctively knew that I shouldn’t go to see a shrink, as it was not an illness. It was unpleasant but I could always see the sense in it. What’s much harder to deal with (at least for myself) is the loss of passion. I feel like I’m aimlessly sailing through life, which is strangely enough not as bad as it used to be. I’m kind of in a limbo now where I want to know what to do, what my passion, my mission is, and at the same time where I’m just content to be, all this together mixed with boredom (because I don’t have an idea what to do) and relaxation (as this can be relaxing and liberating at the same time). It’s a mix of caring and thinking about passions and goals and absolute carefreeness. Physically this manifests in bouts of tiredness and laziness combined with feeling calm. I’m sure I’m not the only one feeling like this

    • ya .. it feels like being ready, bags packed and socks on, knowing you are about to go somewhere ..

      but no itinerary yet (or the money to do so) :p

    • Your comments are spoken for many people right now who are awakening, and are at the stage of boredom and feeling passionless. Someone right here in my physical community is going through that and is pulling in drama as a substitute, which can happen if we are trying to avoid the void.:)

      Sounds like you are slowly adjusting to the idea that it’s o.k. to just be, and that maybe that will be our new passion. Which doesn’t mean we won’t have interesting and creative projects.

      Thanks for your feedback. It’s so appreciated.


      • thank you for your anwer Maria. Oh I’m so over drama, haven’t had any in my life for a while and I’m not yearning for it either. Yeah I feel it’s ok to just be, still boredom plays a role now. I feel like I’m waiting for something to happen, yet again I’m indifferent to it and don’t care what will be. A mix of feelings for sure.
        how are you today?

    • You’re not the only one, no. I feel and/or have felt everything you are going through. But i overcame most of the feeling of some great passion or purpose recently, because….each moment holds a purpose! Every being you come in contact with, every picture you take, song you sing, meal you cook…its all done with an intention. Are you fully present in all you do, realizing whatever you are doing at that moment IS your purpose? The more you are confident and joyful and at ease you are, even if it is doing NOTHING, the more magic your life will become.

    • We’re feeling the same over here. Thanks for putting it into words so well. ❤

  2. Kat
    I know what you mean. It sometimes feels like i’m just biding my time, kind of just waiting also. I also discovered that drama doesn’t even have to involve anyone else. That I can create it all alone, all by myself.
    I am doing well today thanks. I’m basking in the Florida sun at my favorite cafe. Life is good. ☀️

  3. Greetings Ma’am !!

    I was reading one of your posts on loneliness.

    “if you are not discerning about who you share with, it can lead to some drama.”

    this is exactly what I went through in last few months.

    I feel like remaining silent now because to people, it feels like alien language anyways xD

  4. And Maria, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for putting into words what I believe many people are going through. You really manage to put this somehow intangible feelings into the right words and I truly believe I am not the only one who is sitting there nodding all the time when they read your articles because they are so relatable. You just hit the nail on the head. Especially this:
    “What they once believed no longer rings true for them anymore. Who they thought they were seems to be dissolving. The passions, the connections with others are going away! “

    • Thank you dear Kat for that! It means a great deal to me that you resonate with the words here! And I agree, there are more and more of us experiencing this phenomenal process that has us so often dazed and amazed! 💓💙💟

  5. I am going through a period of fear and grief, thinking repeatedly that either there is no such thing as ascension or that there IS, but I am not one of the ones ascending. I worry that my aimlessness is setting a bad example for my daughter and being a drain on the family in general. i am filled with guilt and anxiety for not being/doing more, but at the same time there is no urge or pull to move in any direction. Any advice would be appreciated, and I thank you. This is my first time commenting here. 🙂

    • First of all thank you for your courage in voicing a concern that is in the hearts and minds of many of us on the Ascension Path. I have been going through some deep feelings of sadness and grief myself. And others that I have been talking to as well. While these feelings are painful it is important to feel them, not judge them, and understand that they are not really about us. They are feelings and energies we have adapted from our families from this and even other lifetimes.

      It is not important to overanalyze, but just to honor them when they come up. We are experiencing a sense of loss in this process. You could call it a loss of our old identity, but that identity really wasn’t us anyway.

      What better example to set for your children than as someone who is not afraid to feel their deepest feelings, because that takes courage and self-love. Feelings of aimlessness and purposelessness are also perfectly natural right now. Honor them as much as you can. This ascension is not about doing as much as it is about a state of being. And any doing needs to come from a place of inspiration. Old human passions will be replaced by a passion from our soul. And our soul does not judge us as not doing enough or not being good enough.

      If you are questioning whether the ascension is real, that is understandable, considering you live in a world in which most people have no idea of this whole transformational process. We have been so used to relying on our personalities to create for us, that now that we are beginning to have to rely on our spirit or our soul nature, it is going to take a while to get used to that. Our human personality has so many judgments on what we are feeling or what we are doing or not doing. It thinks it is in charge of our ascension. It’s not. Our soul is. But our soul has already ascended. It is already whole and complete and it now wants to share that state of BEING with us.. and in the process our soul can rebalance our lives. But it requires getting used to and trusting our soul as part of our everyday lives. If you have been attracted to a blog like mine and others like this, rest assured that you are on the Ascension path, And you are not alone.
      Many Blessings

  6. Thank you so much, Maria. I appreciate your kind and thoughtful reply more than you can know. And I know the bad times will pass, as everything does– it just FEELS as if they never will. 😉 Much love to you.

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  8. This made me cry, and I don’t cry easily. Totally identify with all of this, esp. the not feeling like a victim but like at end of the rope thing. Thank you so much.

    • Tc499…..yes, this process of integration can bring us to tears at times, tears of recognition, tears of disappointment, at times tears of sheer exhaustion! I’ve had all of the above many times, myself! But it does get easier. It gets better and better. And, it’s to know we are not doing it alone…we have the backing, love and support of our Divine Self, of all the other Ascended Masters, of our like minded spiritual community, even if for the most part that community is virtual. Our on line community. They energerically are holding our hands. Much love to you fellow pioneer!💕

  9. Ive heard all this before but what evidence is there? where are the references? All good articles have references… Otherwise its just opinion. No one can ‘know’ this,
    Ive never read long standing practising mystics like Pema Chodren, Thich Nhat Hahn etc speak like this. Maybe because they know to just get on with the practice.

    • jax…I am not familiar with Buddhist teachings, but my experience with any information or teaching is,if it resonates with the core of your being, it is your truth. And then your responsibility to yourself is to live that truth as best as you can. And I have discovered that anything (material, website, book, etc) that uplifts me, that helps me to feel a love for myself, that helps me to feel closer to my authentic self, my soul, my eternal self, call it what you want…is valid and needs no references. If a reference is needed, then there is doubt. And when there is doubt, no amount of ‘proof’ will suffice. If you are not resonating with this post or this material here, then perhaps it’s not your truth. And as you know, there is plenty of excellent information available out there that you can connect to. I wish you joy on your path.

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