Enjoy my new song, I Got My Soul, while reading the post. Listening to the music helps to ground the message.
Have you felt lonely? You know why? Because you’ve disconnected from your soul.
Your soul – oh she is so in love with you! She just wants to be with you. She just wants to share the day with you. She wants to feel life through your hands and feet and taste buds. She wants to see life through your eyes. She wants to explode in you with joy.
She wants to make love to you. She wants to be your lover, your confidant, your best friend. But she will never impose herself on you. So if you are keeping her at arm’s length for whatever reason, those reasons are understandable. After all, who have you been able to trust with your heart? Because human love by nature is conditional.
Your soul loves you just as you are. With all of your shadows and fears and anger. With all the parts of you that you don’t feel proud of. That kind of love can be overwhelming, can’t it? So, she will not impose herrself on you. Instead, she waits patiently for you to allow her to come in fully and unashamedly. But in order for you to allow that type of love, you need to begin feeling worthy. Haven’t you wanted to taste that kind of love from another human being? Haven’t you been disappointed? Very few can offer that kind of love. And that’s because they’re still looking outside for love and approval and acceptance, which becomes a kind of dependency and feeding.
You wanted something different in this lifetime. You want to go for the best lover, friend, and companion anyone could ever have. But, it required you to strip yourself bare of your past, of your self-doubt, your feelings of not being ready or worthy. It meant you had to dive deep into the darkest abyss of yourself, and love those parts of you.
The kind of love that your soul can offer will have you behaving in the most outrageous ways. You may appear quite selfish to those around you. Falling in love with you? Dare you put you in the center of your universe? Dare you look into your own eyes in the mirror, and see a fire that can’t be extinguished? It is there, make no mistake. That fire is there. It’s in your cells, in your heart and your sexual organs. Yes it is orgasmic.
If you allow it. If you trust that the kind of love you want is real, in spite of your mind telling you you’re just making it all up and you’re being selfish. If you allow it, it is there for you. Are you ready? Are you worthy? Just as you are?
Don’t be hard on yourself. It’s not easy allowing this amazing lover in. You have to be so trusting and vulnerable. It’s not about feeling it in every moment. But when you do begin to feel her…you will never be the same.