More than likely your ascension process was initiated or accelerated by some kind of crises, physical or emotional in nature. It pushed you to go deeper, to get out of your head and into your heart. Life as you knew it was no longer the same.
As you opened up to spirit, your old life wasn’t cutting it anymore. It was no longer satisfying to have just enough financially, settling or compromising in terms of health, just enough in terms of significant relationships. And after you released so many old energy relationships, jobs and situations, you then found yourself face to face with your own self, and your shadow self, your mind. So, yet another releasing was required. Releasing, or rather, not identifying with the limited thoughts that paraded through your mind. But it also required you to feel on the deepest level, whether it was sadness, anger, fear, feeling unworthy. It required a deep compassion for all those feelings, and at the same time, a growing understanding that those are not yours. That your I Am does not experience anything but joy and balance and passion.
You grew to understand that you the human personality could no longer manage your life. That your mind did not have a clue how to bring you true joy, or true abundance or health. But that understanding didn’t come easily. There was, and most likely still is a certain amount of battle going on. The mind can’t seem to let go of its desire to control yet it is exhausted by having such a responsibility for which it was never intended.
You understand more and more that you, the human self, can serve your divine self, the self that does all the creating for you. And your human self, including your mind, can best serve by stepping back. By doing whatever it can to love you. To nurture you. To accept you. But it gets in the way by analyzing things, by worrying, by micromanaging.
You the human best serve your soul by making the soul the master of your life. The mind will tell you that your big dreams are far-fetched, impossible, and your soul will say, it’s all possible! Your mind will tell you that it’s all going downhill, but your soul says, it is all just transforming into something better than you dear mind could ever imagine. Your mind wants to make sure you don’t appear crazy to anyone, so you try to dim your light, but your soul can’t be contained.
When I let go of control and allow a desire to manifest, it comes to me in ways I would never have expected. Often a desire to experience something new will evoke some fear because it requires us to move out of our comfort zone. But what I am finding is that as the new desire manifests, I do feel safe. I’m sure this is true for you as you look at your own life. Yes, this really does work!! But it’s not mental, not trying to imagine what we want to experience. It’s a feeling. It’s passion. And, this concerns many who are not feeling particularly passionate.
Again, passion can’t be created from the human perspective. It’s from the soul. Sometimes it’s o.k. to be in the void, and just know that you are in the process of creating a new kind of passion in your life. Remember, you have been living in a mental world for a very, very long time. You have been operating from the mind for so long that it will take a little time to integrate the soul, the true passion back into your life.
In a way, the old needs to dissolve before the new can come in fully. But the important thing to remember is to ask yourself, when you are in a crisis, or in what you consider a negative state of mind, who am I speaking from, in this moment, from my mind, or my soul? Am I owning what my mind is telling me as my truth?
HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL?
Since we know that how we feel, how we are vibrating creates our experience, then it’s not a bad idea to feel as good as we can. So, knowing that, why not ask ourselves how something makes us feel before we so hastily select it as our truth. Universal law of attraction is always working no matter what. And now that the energies are intensified, the manifestation time has become shorter.
Because we are learning to work with our so-called dark feelings, we are learning to allow them breathing room but not identify with them. And the reason for that is first, it just feels better not to identify with those heavy feelings. And second, it is how we create our reality. As we identify more and more with our expanded selves, you can call it our soul, and less with our personality selves, it will be easier to not identify or create from the mind. But meanwhile it’s important to be aware of how we are feeling in the moment. Sometimes we ask, where did that anger come from? Where did that sadness originate from? Is it from my ancestral lineage, is it from me picking up on my husband’s or wife’s or friend’s energies? Is it my shadow self? We can drive ourselves quite crazy trying to figure that out. The answer is probably from many sources. But wherever it originates from doesn’t really matter. What really matters is how do we want to feel? Because feelings of joy, passion, peace, contentment, adventure, hopefulness, are of a higher vibration, love being the highest. But to get to those feelings does not require trying or hard work or effort. The first step is to give the uncomfortable feelings room to breathe, not judging them or identifying with them. No, not always easy to do.
Sometimes we feel at the end of our rope… like what’s the point? We would rather just move on from this life because things are just getting too difficult. Our bodies and our emotions, perhaps our finances are just not where we want them to be. Many who feel this way feel guilty about that. About wanting to move on, to pass away. To shed the body.
I admit, there have been times where I have felt such a desire. When that does come up, I find it is much better to acknowledge it without judgment. I just begin to observe how it makes me feel. It is a mixed bag of feelings. One is of relief of shedding the physical body. Of exploring new realms. Of a new adventure. The other end is feeling sad, and also feeling that I didn’t accomplish what I came here to do. To claim my freedom as a sovereign embodied Master.
But as I feel into it and take the weight off myself of having to accomplish anything or feeling as if I have let myself or others down, there is a sense of relief and peace.
And interestingly, that feeling of relief and peace gets to be shared with all the ‘issues’ that I am experiencing. And from that place, I feel differently entirely.
Many feel a sense of taboo around the subject of death. And yet, we are all going there at one point or another. Whether it is the death of the old self and the rebirth of the new self, whether it is shedding the body and refocusing into the non-physical, or whether it is departing the earth as an ascended being.
So if you know that feeling good brings to you good feeling experiences, you would probably want to find that feeling as often as possible. So if anything comes up that you have a question about, run it past your emotional GPS.
If you’re wondering whether a physical condition you have is serious, ask yourself how does it make you feel to believe that it is. If you’re wondering if there really is an illuminati, or a dark cabal, ask yourself how does that make you feel? If you’re wondering if you should be watching the news more often to keep up on world events, again ask yourself how would that make you feel to watch the news. If you believe that the world is in chaos and will only get worse over time, and man is going to self-destruct, there’s nothing wrong with feeling that. But if you spend a lot of time feeling that, you will absolutely attract into your experience that energy of vulnerability.
We have to be careful here however because this is not a mental game, only thinking good happy thoughts, or feeling good feelings. (Many, even in the New Age community believe we must focus only on the light.) We are in the process of releasing so much stuck energy that we need to allow all of these feelings to flow through us. The problem is when they start flowing, our mind swoops in and thinks there is something wrong. The alarms go off and we start to worry, wonder, ponder, analyze, run to doctors, psychiatrist, take medicines and supplements. We run the risk of buying into all those fears. And then if we do, we create more discord in our bodies and our minds.
But the good news is, no matter where you are, no matter how much you think you have fallen into the abyss of negativity or physical decline, you just have to push the reset button. (Take a deep breath. Take a nap). You can do that at any time. There are no mistakes. You really can’t get it wrong.