Recently I was shocked to lose a beloved T.V. character… Not the actor, but the character he played in a T.V. Drama that I was following devotedly on Amazon Prime. (I don’t own a television.) He was killed off unexpectedly in the script. This has happened several times, in various t.v. dramas, and each time, I am just as shaken. It makes me realize how invested I get in some of these shows, and in the characters, even if they are written as having questionable integrity. Often the producers will ‘kill them off’ because the actors have chosen to move on to new projects.
This time I was hit hard. I had a good cry.
So I had to ask myself, what’s going on here? Why was this tugging so strongly at my heartstrings? And then it became apparent that I was not allowing myself to fully grieve my own ‘death.’ What feels like the death of my old self. I, too am moving on to new projects, to a new life, and saying goodbye to my old ‘story’ was pulling on my heartstrings.
Ascension, embodied enlightenment is just a breath away. But, some of us on the leading edge of ascension are hesitant to go through that last door. So we label ourselves as ‘stuck.’ Sometimes, not letting go of feeling stuck is because it means stepping out of the game. What game you ask? The game called Life on Earth. A game that, for so many lifetimes had us steeped in drama, battling with ourselves and others. Needing things to overcome.
And of course it is fueled by fear.
We have been detaching from the 3-D world. But, we are still hesitant to give up this game entirely. It is a bit delicious. We still want to savor those last morsels of a game we have been playing for eons of time. To let it go completely is a bit frightening. We are already experiencing a sense of loss because we believe we will never have a game again that has been so much fun. Fun you say? How could you call drama/trauma fun? To answer that, all you need to do is look at video games or any sports events to see the challenge involved? Is there not an opponent of some sort to fight and overcome or overpower? Without that, would those games even be any fun? Someone inevitably holds the power. Maybe our enlightenment is just a breath away, and not as complex as we may think it is. Maybe it is just a matter of, do we want to give up the game just yet? Because we know we have to, that it is inevitable. That in order to ascend we will have to release the drama/trauma. And even though we are finding that drama just doesn’t appeal to us like it used to, and we know it is going away, it may still concern us. Without some sort of drama or challenge, doesn’t life feel a bit….empty?
We say we want nothing to do with drama, but how many secretly sneak off and watch the news? Or some drama-filled TV series? Or enjoy a bit of gossip? And, really there is no wrong here, no judgement. Can we have the utmost compassion for ourselves for still feeling the draw to some drama? After all, it’s been the only game in town forever. In fact, as the master, we can choose to play in a little drama from time to time. The difference is, as the master we are conscious of it and we can choose to leave it any time we want to. One night I was driving home and it was raining and it was very difficult to see the roads. It was a relatively short ride, and I could have pulled over until the rain subsided, but I chose to drive through it anyway. That was really about the extent of drama in my life on that particular day.
THE ULTIMATE BATTLE
Admittedly, there is a shameful lack of programming that expresses themes related to ascension and enlightenment. You and I and others at the forefront of embodied enlightenment are the catalysts for those new programs, books, movies, songs and art. The drama angle will be replaced with a different ‘draw.’ As more and more people release the need to overcome something, to do some sort of battle, it will most definitely be reflected in the media and literature.
But for now, it’s slim pickings.
And of course battling with our mind is the ultimate form of drama, a game we play. Allowing our soul to be with us and then pushing it away, another game we play. This love/hate relationship with ourselves. Again, no judgement. It’s what we have been doing since we came here eons ago and began experiencing the physical. In fact, we were doing it even before we came here. It’s our galactic story.
But, the game is over. At least for us at the forefront of this transformation. And this is in no way dismissing the pain we have endured as just a ‘game.’ But, it has been our clever way of making the pain of being unconscious more bearable. For that we should give ourselves credit. We have glamorized and romanticized that pain, and it has been cultivated to a high art in the media, our movies, t.v shows, books, songs, and of course, the news.
I have never had an interest in sports, or anything of a competitive nature, but I have been pretty heavily invested in the drama game, just like most humans. But now I find myself slowly losing interest in it. I am finding that it’s being replaced gradually, by a sense of peace, and a feeling of carefreeness, and adventure. A sense of a new partnership with my soul. We are discovering that drama is being replaced with a joyful, sensuous connection with our soul and with life.
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