It’s been three weeks now since I left my coffee shop community of 15 years.
Over all those years I felt so comfortable there, sitting and having coffee each day, and writing in my journal, sometimes for hours at a time. It was close to home, and I could even zip back and forth a couple of times a day. Everyone there was so warm and welcoming. Yet I knew it was time to move on. Because over time it became congested with too many energetic entanglements. It felt like my freedom to just be was infringed upon by too much attention from others. It became harder and harder to set boundaries, especially with those who were used to me participating with them in the old way, in which I would accommodate their needs even if it made me feel uncomfortable. Even when I tried to make myself less available and stated my desire to just sit alone, there were those who simply didn’t want to let me go.
So, while I had already made the decision, and had already released all my associations to others there, and to the energies there, it was bitter-sweet. Its walls and tables, chairs and booths were infused with so many memories. The idea of not spending time there any more felt so sad. It felt like I would be too lost and lonely without it. After all, being there was such a big part of my life. It was a home away from home, a familiar and cozy refuge from the storms and uncertainties of so many life changes. Even with all the energy feeders frequenting the place, it felt comfortable and safe.
But what I discovered was that the feeling of comfort and safety was within me all along. That I get to take that with me wherever I choose to go.
Now I rotate my visits to various cafes each day so that I don’t fall into the same patterns. And it’s kind of fun. Makes me feel more carefree, like I’m on vacation. Just passing through. No ties.
The community I live in is also becoming over populated and I am beginning to feel a desire to live in a less developed, less congested area of Florida. Perhaps in time I will move geographically to an area that feels more expansive to my soul.
MOVING INTO OUR EXPANSION
It is what this whole embodied enlightenment process has been about, moving more and more toward our own expansion. Releasing congestion. Which as we know begins within us and then is beautifully reflected in our life. Yes, it comes with emotions of sadness and fear, because we are letting go on so many levels.
Not easy considering there are those who do not want to let go of us: people, family, here and even those on the other side of the veil. Including all of our ancestors. We are not the only ones resisting this process, but we are the ones who have the opportunity now, through this recalibration to set ourselves free. (And that in turn sets them free).
But that requires a devotion to loving ourselves, and to not allow ourselves to get sucked into all the distractions outside of us, and within us.
We can’t pull this off by staying inside the matrix, by giving into our mind’s worries and concerns. And as we are discovering, those worries and concerns are not really ours. They have been downloaded into our bodies from the beginning of time. They are not something we just happened to pick up this lifetime. But we end up playing them out over and over in our personal lives.
Most people take pride in their family heritage and enjoy discovering who their ancestors were, and even for some, who they were in past lives, and that is appropriate for them, but we on the ascension path are in the process of letting go of all of that. Not the actual events or memories, but our energetic ties with all of that. It’s releasing mass consciousness. The story we have been living for eons of time.
Because just like places we live, things get congested…with patterns, old ancestral energies and diseases. Addictions to playing small, playing victim. To believing that we are doing this ascension by ourselves, without our soul. Addicted to trying to figure it out.
We may not like how this process feels to our minds and our bodies, but it’s happening. Embodied enlightenment isn’t about ascending from these bodies and this Planet. It’s integrating our own divinity into these bodies and walking this Planet in an Ascended state of consciousness. But in order for that to happen, there’s a lot of congestion that needs releasing.
There are days I wake up and I feel like I can’t do this any more. Like it’s just too much for my body to endure. It feels endless and it seems there’s no relief. That this whole ascension is impossible, just a big, dangling carrot! But I discovered that the voice speaking that is not my truth. It’s the voice of the tired human, and even of the emotions that were downloaded into this human’s body from ancient times… feelings of hopelessness, and of fear. I honor that human because it can feel impossible and frustrating at times. Especially where the physical body is concerned. But more and more my allegiance is with the voice that feels the richness of life on this planet, that enjoys the sensuality of this body and this environment, that knows that this ascension, this embodied enlightenment is my destiny…it’s your destiny if you want to stay here and enjoy your freedom.
Enjoy, You Are My Destiny from Cosmic Blend:
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