Hello my dear friends!
Well, I’m breaking my word and coming back a little early from my retreat. (Life is full of little surprises!). It seems I am quite refreshed and ready to reconnect. I hope you are having an enjoyable summer (or winter depending on your location).
I appreciate each and every one of you in this wonderful little community! I say ‘little’ because in the scheme of things we are not a large group, compared to where most of the planet’s population is at right now consciousness wise! But as Abraham of Abraham-Hicks wisely stated, “There’s never a crowd on the leading edge!” Besides, you don’t need a majority to create a paradigm shift.
I am proud and honored to be in a small but devoted group of souls who are bold enough to slowly let go of their story. Even though that story has been their identity literally forever! Brave souls who decided a while ago that enough is enough, and began their journey of no longer playing the victim in life. So you opened that door to your freedom, and began allowing your Christ Consciousness in, even though that blew your life apart as you knew it. Even though you weren’t quite sure as the human what it meant and where it was all leading, you did whatever it took to initiate your freedom. So I hope that, no matter what you may still be going through, you have the deepest compassion for yourself. If you can laugh, you are doing well, because it’s just too easy to feel stuck and start believing the stuff the mind churns out.
For me, it’s been an interesting couple of months. I did some venturing outside my community and took a few road trips to some areas of Florida I had not been to. It was refreshing to get out of my neighborhood without having to board a plane…not fond of flying these days.
But the most interesting ‘trip’ was the one that happened all too close to home.
EYES WIDE OPEN
It’s been about three months now since I left my cafe community. After almost 15 years, it was time to walk on and release some old, stuck energies and associations I formed there with others. It was bitter-sweet because that cafe was such a big part of my life. And there were so many aspects to it that I thoroughly enjoyed. I wasn’t walking on from a place of… ‘I can’t wait to get out of here’ but rather from a place of… ‘It’s simply time to move on.’
And once I did I found myself in quite a different reality. It changed the dynamics of how I interact with others. I find that I don’t draw the same dynamics to me like before, specifically from those who want to feed off my energies. It also opened up my eyes wide to something I want to share with you.
Mid-July someone in the cafe community emailed a YouTube video to me from the national news service covering a story about an elderly man who, after his evening coffee run at Starbucks, shot and killed his next door neighbor execution style (six times in the head and chest) and then proceeded to shoot and kill himself. The news stated it was a tragic ending to a long-standing feud over grass sprinkles and parking spaces.
This man, Steve, was an acquaintance I sat with over the past couple of years at the cafe. He could be very pleasant, and we had some enjoyable conversations. Yet I felt, from time to time, an undercurrent of anger in him, which you could say was familiar, since I had been in a few relationships with angry men. He sought my company whenever he saw me there, inviting me to sit with him and sometimes along with a circle of his friends. They seemed like very nice people who were quite fond of Steve. But in recent months I became less comfortable sitting with him. A natural byproduct of more awareness and self-love. Over time he seemed more agitated and distracted, especially when he brought up his conflict (supposedly over sprinklers) with his next door neighbor in conversations. At the time I assumed that he was just blowing off steam.
He had an impatience with people, especially close friends and family. When we did sit together, I would try to make him feel more comfortable so I wouldn’t become the brunt of his anger. Trying to ‘diffuse’ his anger. A familiar knee jerk response that many people practice, especially women, with their male counterparts, to protect themselves. (A role we women on the forefront are letting go of.)
I had no concept of the magnitude of destruction this man was capable of. That he could act out his own sense of despair and abandonment so extremely. Yet, somewhere in our DNA, in out galactic memory, especially as women, we sense that the imbalanced male energy (which could also be present in women) is potentially volatile. But for the most part it’s not part of our conscious awareness.
In retrospect I realized I was a touchstone for him in order for him to feel more comfortable in his state of consciousness. Such a familiar role for me and for many others, especially women. A kind of ‘default’ behavior of nurturing and support. It comes from a concern that, if we don’t do this, they will most likely behave badly. So it is a soothing of their anxieties for them.
The person who sent me the video said Steve kept asking where I was. I hadn’t announced to anyone there formally that I was leaving. In fact, I could sense him looking for me. As we release others, they often do not want to let go of us.
As I see it, as I unplugged from the cafe and from him, (and from other ‘walking-wounded’ there) it helped to set him free. It set him free to face himself, to then deal with all his feelings, and continue his journey. Even if that journey had him acting out that anger and sense of abandonment, that sense of shame… and ending his life on this planet.
SETTING EVERYONE FREE
I began to realize how important it is for those of us who are empaths, as women especially, to let go of holding energies for others, let go of being their energetic support, because we are not really helping them, and in fact we often hold them back from their soul growth! We just delay them doing what they will do. Especially if they are not looking for resolution to their issues through self-love and self-acceptance. And by now we know whether someone is ready to be in that space
Dimming our light to accommodate others, to make them feel more comfortable is not a blessing to anyone. And we end up all too often downloading their unexpressed emotions into our body. We can’t afford to do that anymore. We assume we are doing this care-taking, holding of energies for just close friends, mates and family. But we have been care-taking the emotional wounds of humanity in general. Add to that the wounds of our ancestors and our spiritual families!
Is it any wonder many of us are dealing with physical issues that seem relentless.
So isn’t it time for them and all of humanity to face themselves? To work out their galactic issues? To continue their personal and soul growth? And what that soul growth looks like is really not our responsibility or our business! It may not bring joy to our hearts to see what some people are capable of as we release them. Their soul growth more than likely involves some falling down. Some deep stuff they need to deal with. Just as we did. Their growth may not involve anything so violent or extreme but isn’t it time to just set ourselves and them free and let the chips fall where they may?
Many of you already have been working consciously with this awareness and know that we best serve others, not by making them more comfortable in their state of consciousness, (or unconsciousness) but by detaching from them, not from anger but from love, self-love. We are a blessing to others by developing a deep compassion and love for ourselves, by embracing our own divine selves, and then that just radiates out. We just carry that self-love wherever we go. And what others then do with that is not our concern. Some will see us as selfish, because they were used to a pattern of us giving them our energies. So they will feel abandoned (but of course they already were feeling abandoned). Some may see that we are enjoying a self-love and they want to enjoy that self-love too. We are a role model. Not a healer. They get to heal themselves. In their own time.
It’s a bold step, and a radically different position, especially as a woman. We are so accustomed to appeasing and nurturing and trying to control their responses (especially their anger) that we don’t realize what is actually happening. Of course I am not speaking for all women, but most women to one degree or another, and some men too, have an innate sense of survival tied into keeping their male counterparts appeased. This is a galactic issue that has been playing out over and over on the planet for eons of time. (For a more in-depth explanation of this galactic issue see my post, He Said She Said.)
As many of us have discovered, with our ascension, and our embodied enlightenment, we are in the process of releasing these care-taking roles for good. But until I saw this galactic issue being so dramatically played out on such a personal level, I did not understand truly what we are letting go of. And the significance of where we are going.
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