As I sit here with my dark roast, contemplating this whole embodied enlightenment deal, I wonder why so many of us have been feeling kind of lost. Like we have no real passion or direction. Why is it so difficult to accept that we are in a void and need to just allow this process?
I think it’s partly because we are so used to overcoming things. To a trailblazer, that is like double dipped ice cream with sprinkles on top. We are always the first to initiate change…to go through the vortex and create new templates.
So, in this embodied enlightenment, have we actually come to the end of the road? Is there nothing left to do? In terms of overcoming an injustice, or breaking the mold, or having a ‘purpose’ here?
I realized I have always liked being the first to dive into places where few have gone. I know it’s gotten me into hot water in more than one lifetime. Some rather unpleasant endings.
It had to do with spirit. I wanted to express that intangible part of myself, but the environment never felt quite right. The timing just wasn’t right. But apparently that didn’t stop me, and well…let’s just say I met with a few untimely and unpleasant endings.
But apparently those experiences didn’t deter me, because I kept coming back for more. I relished the adventure into the unknown.
And I kept reincarnating into the same family line because even though I was an adventurer, I did want to be close to mom and dad.
There was still karma to deal with. Until this time around,
This time it was all about letting it all go, the karma, the blood line, the ancestral DNA…it all had to go. And for the most part, I have let go of a lot. We all have.
And it’s one reason it feels so strange being here now. There is no longer those ties to family, friends, or even to mass consciousness, to humanity itself. Not to mention our spiritual families back home.
WOMEN AND ANGER
But up until now, I hadn’t considered the letting go of enjoying something to overcome. Enjoying the resistance.
Viva la resistance.
For example, right now women on the planet are enjoying waking up and feeling the anger for allowing themselves to be oppressed for eons of time by the patriarchal culture.
First order of business for those women is to feel angry toward the toxic masculine. Absolutely appropriate. There has been backlash from the toxic masculine (which also includes women who embrace it) who says that it’s become a witch hunt, and that women are over-reacting,
And the female gender is saying to them, “step down, you had your chance to be angry at women for eons of time, and we tried to soothe your anger for eons of time.
So, step back, and just let us feel our anger. You don’t have a voice right now. Don’t even try. Stop making it once again about your fragile male ego.”
Sounds harsh, but it’s totally appropriate.
But hopefully these women will channel their anger and create lasting changes in a broken system, rather than to project that anger onto others indefinitely,
Because that is what the toxic masculine has been doing. Not owning his own emotions of feeling abandoned, not taking responsibility for his own pain, but instead blaming the feminine.
Eve didn’t stand a chance in the garden.
And when I allow myself, I too can muster up some anger for all those times in my life when I felt that physical and emotional disrespect from the masculine. As a woman I internalized the subtle and overt sexist behaviors and attitudes that devalued and disrespected me simply because I was a female. They were a normal part of everyday life.
So I have allowed those feelings of anger when they come up. In fact they are a big part of the ascension process itself. It’s a necessary stage of the awakening process to allow all the emotions.
For the female gender, anger is a big one. It’s an anger that goes back in time. A long, long way back. Eons of time.
So a part of me envies the women because they have a cause now. And it’s wonderful. But what I am, and what many of us forerunners are doing is different. In fact, we are the ones who ushered in the energies that have helped to awaken the women on the planet. We have brought in the Sacred Feminine. And that Sacred Feminine carries the Christ Consciousness which is having its way with the masculine and feminine energies on the planet at this time.
And interestingly, this issue of the wounded masculine and wounded feminine is at the core of all other issues facing this world.
ANATOMY OF EMPTINESS
But for us on the leading edge of enlightenment, there is something strange happening. We are letting go of a tremendous amount of resistance. And in that process, there is a feeling of emptiness. Like there is no longer anything to push against.
It’s strange. It means we walk the planet without that old type of passion that was fueled by some type of anger, or purpose, with a desire to overcome something or someone.
Our lives seem devoid of the purpose we once relished. It was a kind of discovery mission. We were always in the process of discovering new ways of being.
But now we are told that we don’t have to do anything. We are in our balance of masculine and feminine. We don’t even have to try to overcome our own human issues and limitations. That’s even been taken away from us.
To think of all the money I spent at the new age and self help section of Barnes and Nobles.
But the good news is the old passion is being replaced, albeit more slowly than we would have liked. It’s being replaced by a different type of passion. A sensual joy for just being here, in these bodies. As we tap into our soul’s presence, we begin to feel that ecstatic connection to life in this time-space reality.
But we need some time to adjust to that new place. Some part of us will still want to feel that intense energy that comes from resistance.
That’s o.k. It’s not about getting rid of all the things that make us human. Those parts can come along. But what we will find is that those parts will acquiesce to our soul’s delight in just being here, without a need for a cause or agenda.
A strange and an amazing place indeed.
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