On my walk the other day, I encountered a man who said hello, and indicated that he was interested in a conversation with me. In short order it became clear that he wanted to engage me in more than just conversation.
He quickly confided that he was married, and that his wife believed in open relationships.
I did what I could to be polite, kept the exchange short, then went on my way.
But it left me feeling unsettled.
I never feel unsafe in my present day life, and I feel that others respect me and my space. Yet, after that encounter I recognized that there’s still a part of me that as a woman, does not feel safe. I felt like I had to protect myself.
Especially as it relates to the male wanting my affection and attention.
It’s something I have felt, mostly subconsciously, as a female all of my life. That I had to make sure others, especially males, did not get too angry. I was invested in the role of nurturer and caretaker emotionally for others, especially for that fragile male ego.
And, to be clear, some of the women I encountered were embodying that fragile male ego, too.
But the safety issue seems to be connected to my own sensuality. To being open to my senses, and how that relates to my own freedom as a woman.
As we open up to our light body, we will be feeling things, and be even more sensitive to our inner and outer environment. And because of those sensitivities, there is a tendency to want to escape the physical body.
To be even more in the head, the mind. But over time as the light body integrates, the sensitivities to environmental conditions eases.
But our sensitivities for life in general become wide open. We begin feeling with not only all of our human senses but the thousands of ethereal ones. Which makes being in the physical a truly sensual experience.
Music, nature, food, and just the rhythms of the Planet itself have a way of coursing through our physical body, and that’s part of the ecstasy that is talked about in embodying spirit.
Yet, for many women, and for many men, actually, in the later stages of their own enlightenment and realization, there may still be a part of them that feels unsafe to embody spirit.
I have written about this before in some of my other posts. But until I encountered this feeling recently, I thought I had for the most part let go of that fear.
There are other ways that women may be protecting themselves from that type of fear. Maybe they’re in a job that they really don’t enjoy anymore or are in a relationship that has expired, but gives them a sense of safety and security.
And, I am not encouraging anyone to make any changes in those situations, but to just feel into their own resistance as it relates to their sense of safety.
There is nothing we need to do on an outer level at this point. But this is a good time to ask, is there something in me that is resisting my own realization and my embodied enlightenment? Is there something about my own sensuality as a woman as it relates to my freedom?
Even if there are no safety issues on the outside, there is still the mind that tries to protect us as women. So we tend to stay in the mind, and not allow the fullness of our sensuality to be embodied in this transformation.
But what price are we paying for playing it safe? What price do we pay for not allowing ourselves to feel the fullness of our sensuality? How do we step into our freedom as an enlightened woman unless we address this issue?
Because embodied enlightenment is a full-bodied experience. Not a mental or philosophical one. The whole point is for our soul to dive deeply and sensually into its own physical creation.
RELAX, TRUST, YOU ARE SAFE
Those of us who consider ourselves awake as women would probably deny that we feel unsafe. That the concept is remote to us.
Yet, we may have set our lives up in a way that provides us a sense of safety and protection.
For example, I have lived in apartment complexes for years, and it’s partly because I feel a sense of safety as a single woman knowing there are other neighbors within earshot. Yet, that thought rarely enters my consciousness.
The encounter with that man the other day brought up some things that I thought had been resolved. But they were lurking underneath the surface.
I’m not writing this to frighten anyone, because really in my heart and soul I know that I am safe, and I know that in the new energy which we are in, it is an energy of balance and it is an energy of safety
So the whole lock up your daughters thing doesn’t really apply to us. We are in a different place, a new energy space that is safe. Even with the encounter the other day, I knew my soul had my back. Not in a defensive way, but in a way that feels like an inner guidance, I knew on a deeper level that all was well.
But, I bring it up because I am wondering if other women sense that part of them that may be holding them back from fully embodying their soul in this lifetime.
Could there be a part of us that still subscribes to the idea that as a woman we are not safe to embody our own sensual nature? Because our soul is very sensual. It will not compromise that sensuality or that joy. Is there still a part of us that is reluctant to let our soul in and shine that joy not just from the heart, from our entire physical being?
Many of us have had experiences not only in this but many other lifetimes of being disrespected for embodying our sensual nature.
Consequently, over time, as women, we came to believe that our service to humanity is through carrying others’ burdens. Not just hold energies for others and the planet and processing them, because all lightworkers have been doing that, all genders. But specifically as the female gender, we felt compelled to keep the peace, to over nurture, especially as we saw how others were capable of harming us if we didn’t assuage their anger.
I go into the root cause of that in a post called The Real Story of Adam And Eve.
Could we be holding onto an illness or a condition, emotionally or physically, because there is a part of us that doesn’t want to let go of that type of service as a woman on this planet?
I may be overreaching on this, but I have to wonder why some of us are still not feeling the fullness of our soul’s presence in our body on a more sustained level.
Because embodying spirit is not a philosophical or intellectual experience. It’s an intimately physical one.
This message of course is not for everyone. But if it does resonate with you, there is encouraging news. And that is, for some of us, this lifetime was the one slated for our freedom as women.
We knew that we could potentially walk this planet with our Christ consciousness fully embodied.
But it requires us to really let go of the pain and suffering. To let go of holding energies. To detach from humanity in a kind of radical way that women are not accustomed to. Not from a place of anger, but from a place of love. Love for Self. And, ultimately, self-love and self-respect is the only way humanity is set free.
Now I understand why embodying our own I Am has been so challenging.
It really requires a type of honesty with ourselves. It requires us to acknowledge the fears that we inherited, that have been a part of our DNA. To feel the fears, the one especially that tells us we are not safe.
And then to just give that part of us the love, from our soul. There is nothing more required. That alone will transform the fear. And then we can more easily and gracefully move into our own sensual freedom.
And that means an unbridled joy for life, sans the discomfort. With no price to pay.
Because our story as women is just that, a story, and we can let it go any time.
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