Those of us on the forefront of ascension, enlightenment, realization, whatever name you want to give it….are coming to understand that we are sovereign beings. That we are the creators of our experiences. As sovereign beings we dance with our Soul as we allow her to create the deeper rhythms in our life, such as our health, our financial abundance and our joy. So everything we need and desire is within our SELF.
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You may have noticed that most relationships in what we call 3D are conditional. They are built on contracts, emotional for the most part. I do for you, and you do for me. They are based on the idea that we are not whole and complete unto ourselves. That we need something from the other to complete us. Whether it’s emotional support, or financial.
That said, emotional and financial support are fine, provided we are not compromising our self in the process.
Sadly, in the old energy, we usually were in some way. Most humans are in an endless cycle of extracting energies from outside self.
But as we become more ourSELVES, we begin to understand how energy works, and we recognize our sovereignty. We understand that what we need and desire is in our own energy. We may still be in relationships, but they take on a new dynamic.
Most folks I interact with at the cafe enjoy my company. And I enjoy theirs. Over the years I have developed with others a little community where we all see one another every day or so, sit and have coffee, and share conversation.
But some of them can’t quite figure me out. They don’t understand that I don’t need them, that I enjoy sharing myself with them, but I don’t really ask for anything in return.
I am not looking for committed, lifelong friendships. I don’t need someone to do things with, or to do things for me.
So this confuses many folks. Because often they are looking for those things. They have certain expectations. They want to know why for instance I sometimes don’t show up for a few days at the coffee shop.
But I can’t explain to them that I don’t need anything from them, including having a consistent and ongoing connection. If there is that ongoing connection, it’s organic and not based on an emotional contract.
So sometimes they misinterpret it as I’m not caring, or they may feel they have done something wrong. It triggers in them a sense of unworthiness. A friend I have coffee with fairly regularly will call me up if I have not shown up for a couple of days at the cafe, and anxiously asks me if everything is o.k.
He worries that he’s being a nuisance.
And, I get it. There’s still that part of me that feels the same way, but not so much in relationship to others. But there’s a part of me that feels I am not worthy of my Soul’s love and attention.
Sometimes it feels like she’s not there, in support of me. But, just like me with my friends, she will not force herself on me, and she will not pressure me to give something to her in return. My soul is not into conditional love.
So sometimes my human self misinterprets that as she doesn’t care. Sometimes it feels like she’s not responding to my human needs and concerns, and then I feel that old horse, abandonment, flaring up.
But that old wound is being released in light of our self-realization. All the worthiness issues stop interfering. We begin to understand that we as the human need to trust and allow our soul, our Divine nature, to resolve these things.
It’s a letting go of the control issues. Because the human can’t control this transformation. We’re too far along at this point to even keep trying. But the human can try to slow it down.
OLD ENERGIES AND NEW
As long as people continue to play in the old energies, they will continue to set up situations in which they feel unworthy and abandoned.
But for those of us who chose the accelerated path to our embodied realization, we played it out. It’s done. Being sovereign is understanding that all the judgements of being unworthy were self-inflicted. And those judgements began a long time ago, even before the earth was formed. And ever since we as the human kept creating karma, lifetime after lifetime, dragging our issues with us, and kept thinking we had done something wrong.
We kept trying to fix ourselves, improve on ourselves, but the underlying energies were feelings of being unworthy. So there was always something more, something else to improve.
And to a point it served us. We gleaned a lot of experience and wisdom.
And as far as relationships go, now that we have released our karma, and our ancestors, we no longer have that old, sticky interpersonal entwinement thing to deal with. We are clear.
So whatever comes up now and feels a bit sticky, or heavy relative to the relatives, or friends, or whom ever in our life, know that it’s the last vestiges of that being played out.
And those who are closest to us, in their heart and Soul, do want us to be the sovereign beings we are becoming. That’s a lot of be’s in that last sentence. So be it!
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