art by Maria Chambers
In 2009 I lost a significant person in my life. It was a tumultuous relationship, with highs and lows. I knew I had to begin distancing myself from him because he was disrespecting me, and the relationship was no longer serving me. The more I began to see it as a reflection of my own disrespect for myself, it became essential to release him from my life.
Shortly thereafter, he succumbed to an illness and transitioned.
I knew on a deeper level we had a soul contract to reunite this lifetime and clear old karma with one another. But I took his death hard.
I had come to depend upon him emotionally and financially, and it took time to release that sadness and pain. But looking back, I see that experience was an essential part of my awakening in this my last lifetime.
Shortly after his funeral, I came down with some type of respiratory infection, or virus. It kept me bed-ridden for nearly two months. I had a chronic cough, and it scared me. At one point I didn’t think I was going to survive it.
I took some measures to alleviate the symptoms, but I knew it needed to run its course.
It was very uncomfortable, but it served a purpose for me. It gave me an opportunity to slow down in my life, stop caretaking my friends and relatives, and go deeper within myself. It was, in its own way, my ‘Covid’ experience.
It pushed me to re-evaluate my life, and my relationship to people in my life. I was the consummate caretaker, and that was no longer serving me. Now I was in the throes of having to care for me. Everyone else had fo fend for themselves.
That would have been almost impossible for me to do otherwise. It took me another decade, but I have finally come to a point where I no longer need an excuse to put my needs first.
So the illness helped me to release old energies in my body and my mind, and was a good way to go deeper into my own awakening process.
And the Coronavirus and the current variant are also wonderful ways for people to go deeper and release so much stuck energies in their bodies and their minds. But like me those twelve years ago, most people don’t recognize that the virus is serving the same for them.
Like the Maria from those many years ago, they see it as something attacking them from the outside, and something to resist and fear. And, it’s no coincidence that the Coronavirus often manifests with respiratory symptoms, which is about the heart chakra.
For me the chakra affected was also the heart. I felt an opening of my heart at that time, as I faced so many fears, and sadness and grief.
Anything that happens in our life, an illness, and accident, the loss of a loved one, or a job are all hallmarks of deep change. They are initiations activated by our soul, into deeper levels of ourself.
In our awakening we go deeper, below the surface, as we experience the veil between human and soul dissolving.
Most people see life as just surviving, and are not that interested in exploring the depths of their own soul. So most people need a kind of wake-up call. And that’s what the Covid was all about.
Most people see accidents, illnesses or losses as random events in their lives, but on a deeper level, they understand that change always happens at the heels of such events. We humans are very resistant to change. And that goes for not just our mind but our body. Our body has its own consciousness, and often tries to hold onto stuck energies.
But on a deeper level, even our bodies understand that change is inevitable.
So, looking back, I can see the wisdom in the toxic relationship, and even in the illness that kept me home for so long.
Eventually, I emerged from my bed, and went for my first cup of coffee in almost two months. That was the most delicious cup of coffee I have ever tasted. First because I was getting my sense of taste and smell back, and second because I felt renewed,
I felt something had dramatically changed in my life. And everything that followed since then has been a part of my transformation from human to Divine human.
It doesn’t mean we need to have a dramatic illness or accident to initiate change in our life. And most reading this have already been through their dark night of the soul. Or are coming out of that stage. And if not, will be soon.
Energy is always in motion and is ever changing.
And I have learned through these experiences that it goes much quicker and smoother if we just accept the conditions we find ourselves in. Face them with compassion. Don’t try to distract ourself from the feelings with medications or Cannabis.
Because that just delays the inevitable.
I faced my emotions of fear, and grief, and anger without ingesting anything purported to relieve symptoms. I knew I had to just feel on the deepest of levels. And while it took courage and time, I’m glad I did.
Because it released layers of heaviness and guilt and sadness from my life, and has made it easier to feel my soul’s presence in my life and in my body,
Our bodies are being prepared through the light body, to accept our soul on a level that has never been done before on this planet, or anywhere in the universes.
It takes time and trust and patience, but as I like to remind myself often, what the hell, I don’t have anything better to do anyway!
Go well my friend.
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