The enigma of becoming fully conscious goes something like this: You go through a process of releasing the past and all the patterns and karma associated with it, and to do that you need to accept it. All of it.
How the hell do I do that? How do I release something by accepting it? Does that even make any sense? The good news is, on a human level, we don’t have to figure it out. Because the human isn’t the one in charge of our enlightenment.
But the human will have to experience the emotional and the physical shifts and movements of energies as they surface. And it does help the whole process of transformation if the human can relax as much as possible and interfere as little as possible.
What happens is the master within us extracts the wisdom from all those experiences, all the stories, the trauma and drama of this and all of our other lifetimes, and leaves the rest behind. The memories will always be available, but they will not interfere with our joy.
The human could never orchestrate that. It isn’t meant to.
I am beginning to think that the hardest part of this process is just allowing it to unfold. Such a simple word, allow. Yet so much angst associated with actually putting it into practice.
We are not used to that. As the human with a limited perspective, we have been trying to get it done. We have been working at things. At becoming a ‘better’ person. A happier person, a healthier, a more ‘worthy’ person.
Which, from our soul’s perspective doesn’t make any sense.
If you resonate with the material in this blog, you are at the later stages of your embodied enlightenment. You no longer need to feel that you have to figure anything out.
At this stage you are being carried along by your Soul, and your I AM.
But you still have free will, so you can make the process harder, and slow it down if it feels like too much. But if you’re like me, you want to do this. You feel like you’ve been through enough and are ready to go the distance. Even if you don’t know what going the distance actually means. What it looks like.
You may feel at this point you have nothing left to lose. Literally.
There comes a point where you feel like you can’t imagine ever going back to the old ways of doing life. You’ve had a taste of being in your own energy and that small human life just ain’t gonna cut it.
You will be lured back into that life. There are people, energies that want you back there, make no mistake. But you know, at a certain point you couldn’t go even if you wanted to.
It’s a strange place to be. It can be very lonely. Not too many can get what you are feeling. If you try to relate to them as that old, small human, it’s painful. Everyone seems lost in their own world, and I’m sure I seem that way to them, too.
But I’m no longer lost in that 3D world. And I’m not really lost at all. Granted those human emotions beckon me. They try to get my attention. They try to scare me, depress me, and frustrate me.
But the fears don’t have anything to do with that 3D world, and all of the turmoil out there. The fears seem more ‘close to home’ and seem to be about my own realization.
I have been so devoted to my own embodied realization. Although I have had many different jobs, that’s my job this lifetime. It trumps any other job description. It would have to. My embodied realization is not a part time job or hobby or pastime.
It also trumps any relationships. While I have had incredible relationships, the primary relationship has been with myself, my soul, and my I AM. And it took a long time to get there.
This was the lifetime of do or die for me. It hasn’t been a lifetime of procrastination. This is the one I wanted to be here in a way I have never experienced before. I knew I couldn’t take any shortcuts. I knew no drugs or plants could get me there.
And although I have an incredible support base, no one could do it for me.
So it gets lonely, and scary, and depressing. There are times I don’t think I can stay. Sometimes it feels too overwhelming. My mind doesn’t want to believe it’s possible. But my heart does. In my heart I know it’s possible. And it knows that this lifetime has the potential of the Atlantan dream to be fulfilled.
The dream of embodying my Self.
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