I have mentioned in other posts that we are always expressing. And if we aren’t allowing ourselves to express our voice, another part of us will find ways to do that. Even if it’s through bodily imbalances, and emotions like depression. Continue reading
Years ago when in my twenties, I left New Jersey and a controlling Greek father behind, and drove, with a college boyfriend, to a small midwest town named Iron River, Wisconsin.
We lived for almost a year in a small cabin type home in the woods, along with another young couple. What could be more exciting and new?
What started out as just a vacation ended up being more. I worked at the local fishing pole factory, since jobs there were scarce. My days involved wrapping wire around fishing poles, and inadvertently inhaling solvent based glue without proper ventilation. (Back in the early 70’s). Continue reading
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Many have moved through depression in their awakening process, but many are still experiencing this difficult symptom.
Depression. sadness, hopelessness, grief. Feel it all. Let it course through your veins, let it run through your body. Let the tears flow, for they are so cleansing. Don’t hold back. Feel the heaviness in your heart. Maybe you are just numb and feel nothing. Allow it all.
You can’t be on this ascension path without feeling, at some point, some form of depression.. It may feel like the depression is coming from a life event such as separation from a partner, loss of a job, a health issue for example. But really it is because you are letting go of everything you thought you were. As you look in the mirror you may not recognize the person you see anymore. You wonder where you are going. Sometimes you feel like the little boy or the little girl who can’t find their parents. They feel so abandoned.
It’s all perfectly natural. Your heart is heavy perhaps. You can’t seem to engage in life the way you see other people engaging in life. You may feel empty. Heavy. It’s OK.
Things you used to enjoy don’t seem to do it for you anymore. You may have ended a relationship. Perhaps lost a job. You don’t seem to be connecting with people the same way anymore. While many people are intrigued with their family tree and who they may have been in other lifetimes, you are releasing all of that. All a natural part of your transformational process. As painful as it may be, and as much as you need to feel it and allow it, understand that it’s not personal. You are among many who are experiencing variations of the same thing. You are shedding your old self. In just about every way. Your mind interprets that as a great loss. But that conclusion is an illusion.
You see, your mind in this entire process is really in the dark. There is so much going on, so much transformation, that the mind just has no clue. So in order to put the mind at rest, you can just allow all of the feelings to go through you. Don’t try to resist them. But depression may feel like a stuck energy to you. In a way it is stuck. Your mind is trying to hang onto it. And perhaps underneath the depression there is anger. If you feel the anger surfacing please allow yourself to express it in a safe way. That at least is movement. Keep the energies moving as much as possible through you. Because they are not you.
There is so much going on in you right now. You are releasing things, people, situations, your old patterns, your old ancestral lineage. Your galactic history. You’re releasing and transforming your old concepts and beliefs. And on top of all of that you’re also feeling into the mass consciousness right now and that energy can feel very depressing. There are entities around you and even in the near Earth realms who are being affected by this new energy. You’re feeling those as well because you are an empath.
Your entire body is being re-formatted in order to accommodate your new partner, your soul, your Divinity. (And by the way, you dont need to be free of all your ‘issues’ physically or emotionally in order for spirit to reside in you more fully.) And you’re losing nothing. You are gaining so much that one day you will look back and you will recognize the depression for what it was. Not to diminish the feelings, but you will see the depression as just a little blip on a huge screen. You will just feel that you had to go through it but it was only temporary. And it was so important not to resist it. You can talk to your mind, and tell it that nothing is really lost. Everything is just transforming and integrating.
NO MORE HOLDING ENERGY
You are not an energy holder. Those days are over for you. Others on the planet are taking over that role. Holding energies for gaia, for example. Or for others. You are now an energy mover and you need to keep energies moving as much as possible. In other words, as soon as you try to block or try to scramble out of the emotion, whether it’s depression or fear or anger, you reinforce it. And when you try to hold the energy for others, it becomes stuck energy. In the new consciousness, it’s all about letting it all in but not identifying with it. Not processing it. Not analyzing it. Just accepting it, and in that way it becomes unstuck. It can be released. For women especially, your new role is to disconnect from the pain of humanity. To not identify with all the emotions. To choose how you want to feel. And to allow yourself to express yourself through your sensual nature, no longer just expressing through and residing in the heart. Because your soul doesn’t reside in just your heart, but wants to move through you in a profoundly sensual way. It’s your creative force. And you haven’t felt safe to express in this way.
And dear sisters, you can’t have it both ways: You can’t embody spirit, you can’t be free while you are still processing for others what they need to process for themselves.
What you can do for yourself through this process is to nurture yourself as much as possible. Take walks in nature. Do some light exercise like walking or whatever feels good. Dancing is such a wonderful way to express and release stuck energies. Go out and sit at a local cafe for a while. Paint, draw, journal, sing. B R E A T H E…..drink lots of water. And just remember you have so much support and assistance all around you. In the non-physical you have so many souls that are watching over you and while they can’t interfere, they are sending their love and support and admiration for what you are going through. Because as you awaken and ascend in your body it opens up doors for them as well. They honor you for what you’re doing here on the planet along with many other brave souls who volunteered to go first through this awesome and often crushing process. You are not alone. Just reach out to your entourage. They are right there next to you. Just remember you are so much more than who you are when you look in the mirror. You are so much grander than the depression you are feeling.
author’s note: If you are taking prescription medications for depression, ultimately it is best to be off of them, but do so carefully and gradually, as recommended by your doctor.
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Enjoy my song, Sea Spirits, from my album, Cosmic Blend, while reading the post. Listening to the music helps to ground the message.
You don’t have to change a thing about yourself, or about your life to invite spirit into your body. You don’t have to resolve all your issues, your relationship issues, your health issues, or your financial issues, or even your self-worth issues.
Your life could be falling apart. You could be at the end of your proverbial rope. In fact, that’s actually the best time to stop, take a few deep breaths, and have a conversation with your soul. Treat your soul as you would a good friend, as a confidant. Share what you are feeling and going through with her. Don’t leave anything out. Tell her what your needs are on the physical, financial, emotional and relationship level. It’s of course best if you are in more of a calm space when you are sharing this. You have more access to your inner being, or your soul, when you’re feeling more relaxed. So set aside some time, where you can be alone, and find a way to just relax. Whether it is a warm bath a shower, listening to some music or having a cup of hot tea or glass of wine. It could be while you are taking a leisurely walk in nature. It doesn’t matter, whatever gets you in that relaxed state. Then, tell your soul what your needs are. Because you have been battling your mind, who is trying it’s best to do the figuring out for you, but the mind simply can’t do it. It was not designed for that purpose. And yet we continue to listen to the advice of the mind as if it knows what it is talking about. So it is going to require depending on Spirit more and on the mind less. But it is possible to allow our spirit into our minds, bodies and our realities here on earth, and we don’t have to wait for any designated time of enlightenment or Ascension. We are qualified right now, just as we are, with all of our so-called problems, our physical, emotional, relationship, and financial issues.
Our soul is ready, willing and able to work with us with the new energies, these new crystalline energies, whenever we feel ready. And being ready doesn’t mean having resolved all our issues. All that is required is that we begin to accept ourselves just as we are right now. Seeing ourselves as worthy right now of this relationship.
We have processed, expressed, integrated, and while there is more to release, we don’t have to complete another cycle to begin to have a real relationship with our soul. It can be as intimate as we want it to be. We can enjoy the simple things in life with our soul right alongside us. Our soul loves us completely and unconditionally and wants to experience life with us.
Struggle and Suffering
We still carry the notion of struggle and suffering within our energy field to a certain degree. In the past we suffered and struggled to find God. So in this Ascension process, we still believe, even if we are not a part of any organized religion, that we are not worthy yet and that we must struggle and suffer in order to have God in our life on an intimate level. We are still not yet convinced that there is a certain ease in the new energy. That all we need to do really is to command the energies to serve us. And then to step aside and allow this process which is totally natural.
That is okay, we are in the process of releasing centuries of old patterns and beliefs. Whenever we go deeper into self-love, things come up in our energy to be cleared. Those parts of us that feel unworthy and incomplete are still there and wanting our attention. It is why sometimes things seem to get worse instead of better. We think we are doing something wrong or not loving ourselves enough, but in actuality sometimes as we do open to self-love, we invite in our aspects that have been in shadow. I know for myself, I have been going through this process now for quite a while. I have been facing some very deep fears, some of which I have never felt in my entire life. At times they have overwhelmed me. I have felt so out of control but actually I was trying very hard to control things and that’s why I was in such pain. I am slowly releasing my mind as being the creator of my life, and I am tentatively and cautiously allowing my soul to work with these new energies on my behalf. I have to admit, this has been one of the most difficult times of my life, because I am facing some of my deepest fears. At one point it was so uncomfortable, that I truly felt I wanted to leave the Planet. Not that there’s anything wrong with wanting to leave, I’m sure we have all felt those feelings during this intense transformational process. I had to remind myself that these issues were not really personal, that they were universal issues that so many of us are going through right now, and we need not feel alone with them.
So when we are having that conversation with our soul, it is important to be clear about what we are feeling, and what our physical human needs are at this point. To take those needs seriously. Because our soul doesn’t truly understand what it’s like to be physical. It wants to share this physical experience with us, and wants to use all our physical senses to enjoy life here with us, but we will not be of much use to that dear soul of ours if our body is breaking down, and our finances are a mess, or if we are in unsatisfying relationships. So, if we are to move forward into the new energy, with our soul in these bodies, we need certain things. We need strong healthy bodies, we need to feel comfortable in our home, whether that home is in the country or by the ocean or in town. We need to have plenty of sacred space all our own. We need to have a good means of transportation, and some good friendships. Some of us may want a mate, but that is not necessarily a requirement. But it is nice to have others of like mind, to share with on an intimate level.
We have been through so much to get to where we are now. There is no reason whatsoever that we should not have the things that make our stay on this planet more comfortable. If you are suffering from a physical condition, whether it’s a disease, or a malady, it does not matter where it originated. You don’t have to try to figure it out from your mind as to why it’s there. All you need to do is ask your soul to clear that disease or imbalance for you, And to clear the underlying patterns and emotions that may have created it. Now in that process, there may be feelings that come up such as deep sadness or anger, and that is good. It’s to just feel the feelings and allow them breathing space, to let them come and go. Most of those illnesses and imbalances aren’t even ours to begin with, as I have discussed this in other posts, so I will not go into detail here. But suffice it to say that it is time to be clear to ourselves and to our soul about what exactly we want and need. And of course over time, as we accept and love ourselves as we are, our needs and wants will be taken care of without even thinking about it. Some of us may already have this experience. Everyone is going through this process in their own time and way.
We deserve to have a joyful and fulfilling life for the remainder of our years here on the Planet. This transformation is not an easy process, and is not for the faint of heart. Those of us going through this are absolutely courageous, absolutely resilient, and maybe a little crazy. But the fact that we are still here, after what we have gone through, is an indication that we are ready to receive the love and support from our soul that we so deserve. There is still a lot of work to do in the new energy, and even though many of us may feel detached from mass consciousness, a little bored, and maybe even confused, we are stepping into a whole new energy, with new rules, a whole new operating system, and we are going to be creating our reality in a whole new way. We can’t drag the old tools into the new energy and expect them to work. Believe it or not one of the old tools was struggling and suffering. We used pain and suffering to motivate us to want a better life for ourselves. That is not necessary anymore. And even though we say we want it to be easy, that struggling and suffering energy still clings to us to a certain degree. If that were not the case, we would not have these issues and problems that seem to overwhelm us at times. But that is okay, as I said, this is a time of releasing old outmoded patterns that have been with us for a very long time. So even though we feel sometimes like we are at the end of our rope, we need to have more patience with our human self. Because that human self is really doing the best it can to keep up with these changes. So, I hope as you are reading these words you are embracing your human self, you are acknowledging its needs and wants, and you are also feeling into the expansiveness of your soul. This is an amazing time because we now get the opportunity to meld our human and our souls selves into this amazing new energy being.